EPISODES ON EGO
Ego is one of the seven vices (Lust, anger. greed, attachment, ego, Jealousy and hatred) which get developed in human form along with intellect. Ego has to be reduced to zero to attain God –realization. The state of Egolessness is the state of God realisation. It is impossible to get rid of ego without help of Avatar or Sadguru who are God personified. Avatar and Sadguru brings out the hidden egoistic sanskaras of His disciples and cuts it to zero in best way suited for him. One has to proceed first to develop egoless ego by dedicating all his thoughts, words and actions to his Sadguru or Avatar. At appointed time Avatar and Sadguru through obedience of His orders surfaces the ego sanskaras; dries it, burns the heap all dry sanskaras in a flash and imparts instant God Realisation.
Following are the related episodes.
A retired captain who had then become a sanyasi (one who gives up everything and wanders on pilgrimage) would come for Baba’s darshan whenever possible. On one such occasion he brought his wife. There was at the time a large crowd, and in his insensitive efforts to bring his wife to close despite the crowds, he almost backed right into Baba. Just in the nick of time, Eruch gave a sharp push to the sanyasi who collapsed into the laps of nearby women. He was very annoyed, yelled at Eruch and Eruch tried to explain himself. At that point Baba gestured to Eruch, ‘Be quiet!’ and then continued, ‘Now go and bow down to the man and apologize.’ Eruch promptly did as Baba ordered and the man later boasted to others: “See! Meher Baba gets His disciple to bow down to me.’ Baba, during darshan program gave above message.
Bhau Kalchuri Joined Baba in Dehradun in 1953. Baba’s first order was very embarrassing to cut down his ego. Baba asked him to go to rooms of mandali and tells them loudly, “O fool! Keep silence after 9 pm. Bhauji did so and almost everyone happily replied, OK Sir since they knew that it was Baba’s order to him. When Bhau did the same with Gustadji Donkin’s room though they were aware of Baba’s order still they smiled and said OK Sir. Kaikobad used to repeat Baba’s name many thousand times and at 9 pm and he used to keep silence and repeat Baba’s name in his closed room. Bhau slowly opened his door and repeated the same words. Kaikobad surprisingly looked with anger at Bhau. Bhau immediately left. On forth day Kaikobad was so annoyed that he complained to Baba and Baba stopped Bhau to do it further.
In 1955, Baba agreed to give darshan program in Mumbai and prepared a text for certain message to be read by Baba lovers visiting Him. Gist of the message was no one should ask for material or spiritual things. I will do best what I think for him and when I feel right to do it.”
Baba asked Bhau to hang a sign board of this message around his neck; stand near entry gate and ask every visitor to read it. How ego hurting it was in presence of visitors but Bhau followed. He tried to ask to read signboard but due to crowd no one listened to him. One of the visitor threatened Bhau to throw him out of the gate. After one hour darshan program was over, Baba Called Bhau. Bhau narrated the story. Baba laughed and said. You have a small board around your neck but whole world is hanging around My neck.
During Baba's stay at her home, Dina proudly thought to herself: "How well I serve the Master. No one else is able to serve him as I do. According to His order, whenever Baba needs anything at any time of the day or night, I supply it immediately. Is there anyone else who can do this?"
An incident made Dina keenly aware of the folly of such thoughts. One day, Baba instructed Dina to cook for Him as well as for the mandali, but the men were to help her. When it was ready, Dina informed Baba and He came to the dining room with everyone who had come for darshan that day. Seeing the numerous guests, Dina was taken aback. She took Baba aside and whispered, "There is not enough food to feed everyone. I didn't realize; You wished me to cook for so many persons."
Baba asked, "Why? Did you cook less?"
"I cooked for only You and the mandali as usual. I didn't know about these other fifty people with You."
Baba made no further remark and began serving the food Himself. He served large portions to each person as Dina nervously watched. All were served and still there was food in abundance left over. Baba called Dina and gestured, "You eat the rest." Dina was shocked when she saw how much food remained.
After supper, Baba would go each day for a walk. He would ask for His meal at any time and Dina always had to keep it ready. One evening, before dinner, Baba asked Dina to accompany Him on the walk. Rushing to join Him, she forgot to put His food aside. After Baba and she departed, the mandali ate the meal without knowing that Dina had not saved a plate for Baba. They ate all the food, and put the pots and pans away after washing up.
On the way back from their stroll, Baba told Dina, "I am feeling very hungry. In fact, I feel like I'm starving! What have you cooked tonight?"
Dina then gave Him the menu and said, "The food is ready; I will serve you the moment we reach home." However, when they returned, she found to her dismay that there was nothing left. She began weeping. Meanwhile, Baba sent Vishnu to inquire why He had not yet been served.
Vishnu found Dina crying in the kitchen and told Baba. Baba came and asked Dina what was wrong. When she told Baba, He exclaimed, "You don't even have this much respect for Me? Are you so inattentive that you forget to save anything for Me? Do you only think of yourself?"
Baba's expression softened as he consoled her, "Don't worry about it. I have used you for some inner work of mine."
Dina said that she would prepare something for Him to eat in five minutes. But Baba replied, "My work is done; forget it." Dina, however, insisted that Baba to eat. Baba reluctantly agreed and ate a little of the food.
Later Dina understood the significance of this incident. It taught her a great lesson: Never take pride in serving the Master. What could one do for Him who serves the universe?
Shatrughan Kumar & Dhakephalkar
Once, Dhakephalkar and Shatrughan Kumar with Baba went to Khuldabad, where they stayed for about a month in a building at the top of a hill famous for the caves of Verul.
Baba assigned Dhakephalkar and Shatrughan Kumar watch-man duty at night. Both were supplied some pills which drove away our sleep and kept them awake the whole night.
One day Baba set both for a race and announced a prize to the best try. So both went down the hill and when Baba waved a coloured cloth-an impoverished flag both started climbing. Shatrughan Kumar, being native of Dehradun was a mountaineer. Moreover, he had a light body. Dhakephalkar had a heavy body and no habit of mountain climbing. So naturally Shatrughan Kumar was ahead of Dhakephalkar and won race leaving Dhakephalkar far behind. During the course of conversation with Baba, Shatrughan remarked with little ego that people with heavy body like Dhakephalkar could not climb the hills and were of no use. Baba understood that he was pulled up with ego and wanted to give a smack to it.
“Let us go down a few feet and have game of putting shot i.e. stone throwing.” suggested Baba.
There was an open space where a stone of about 10 Kgs was lying. Pointing to it Baba announced.
“Whosoever throws it to longest distance will bag price.”
Baba Himself was one of the competitors. A line was drawn. Both had to stand there and throw the stone. Baba first tried His hand a marking was made at the point where the stone fell. Then it was Shatrughan Kumar’s turn. His throw was 10 feet ahead of Baba’s. Baba smiled. Shatrughan Kumar also smiled. Then Baba asked Dhakephalkar to take chance and encouraged him to use his full strength and throw to the longest distance. Dhakephalkar hurled the stone with all his might. The point where the stone touched was 20 feet ahead of the point of Shatrughan Kumar’s. Baba patted on Dhakephalkar back. Back to the bungalow Baba said to Shatrughan Kumar.
“If you are the first in hill-climbing, Dhake is first in stone throwing. So, nobody should flatter one’s ego on one’s success.” “Baba, I am sorry.” conceded Shatrughan Kumar.
This ego at times make one indulge in unwanted thing and land in untold difficulties. One has not only to avoid one’s ego but annihilate it and no sooner does the ego go than God is there with you face to face.
Amiya Kumar Hazra
Amiya was an English professor living in Jabalpur. He had heard about Meher Baba, and when he was in Pune, Baba gave a discourse on “Ego.” Amiya was very, very happy to hear it.
When he returned home, the question of ego had made him mad. He said to himself, "I have got a lot of ego, and I must get rid of it.”
He resigned from his college and took a job as peon (messenger boy) in a primary school, where he would take files from one office to another.
Amiya's father was a doctor, very popular and very famous. When he came to know that his son had left his professorship to become a peon, the doctor became very, very angry. He could not figure out why his son had done such a thing and made inquiries regarding the matter. He discovered that Amiya had come into Meher Baba's contact and had His darshan. His father was very, very upset with Meher Baba. Abusing Him Amiya's father told others, "Who is this Meher Baba who has spoiled the life of my son? I will go to see Him.”
Some Baba lovers heard this, and one of them sent a letter to Baba in Mahabaleshwar. As soon as the letter was read out, Baba asked Eruch to send a telegram to Amiya. Eruch did so, instructing Amiya to come to Mahabaleshwar immediately.
Amiya received the telegram, and since he had no money, sold his bicycle to buy his train ticket. He also brought along his friend, Sharma, a professor at the college where Amiya had previously taught.
When Amiya and Sharma arrived in Mahabaleshwar, Baba embraced them and asked them to sit. Then He inquired of Amiya. “Whether your screw is loose?”
"Yes, Baba, that's why I have come to you," Amiya replied. "So that you may tighten my screw.”
How can I tighten it? When I see you, My screw becomes loose!" Then Baba added, "Why did you leave your job of professor?” "Baba, I've got so many egos. In order to get rid of this ego, I left the post that was giving it to me. I have taken up another job, where I have to carry out the orders of my superiors.”
Then Baba added, "In order to make your ego weak, you left your good job and you have become a peon. Can you be free from ego by doing this? Can anyone be free from ego by these outer means? You cannot. You have no idea that it is your ego itself deceiving you when it tells you this. Your ego is not going to leave you. Instead, it is becoming more and more firm and keeps you in its grip. If you have this low job, it does not mean that your ego has become weak. It has remained just the same. This is not the way you can get rid of it.
Only through love for God can you lose your ego, not through intellectual thinking. But that love is the Grace of God. And how can you have that grace? It depends upon God's whim. And therefore, only obedience to Me and My Love can save you. Follow My order and do not think about your ego. Whatever I say, just follow with all love. Your mind may question, and let your mind question, but you just follow My order wholeheartedly. Whatever I say, just do it. Now I tell you: Go back and apply for your previous post.
"But Baba," Amiya said, "Another professor has already been appointed in my place. How can I get the same post?”
"Again, you are arguing?” Your obedience should be natural. Just try to get your post as professor of English again, and you will. Don't use your intellect. Don't argue. It is not good. If you argue, how can you obey Me? Whatever I say, just do it accordingly.
Then Amiya kept quiet. When he went back, he was able to assume a post as a professor in another college.
In 1930, Padri and Vishnu brought in a bundle of clothes belonging to the deceased sadhu Christian Leik, and Baba distributed the garments among all the men. Baba offered a pair of trousers to Rao Saheb, who reluctantly said that he had enough pants. His reply displeased Baba, as it was only an excuse because Rao Saheb did not like the idea of wearing someone else's clothing. Baba angrily ordered him, "Put those trousers on right now!"
Rao Saheb replied that they were too small. However, Baba gestured, "Even if they don't fit, when I offer you something, you should accept it humbly. You men have to learn humility! Don't answer back like that! Don't go on repeating. This is useless. That is not right. Why are you so proud?"
Irritated, Rao Saheb left Baba's presence in a huff. After a short while, Baba sent Chhagan with a garland of flowers for Rao Saheb. This enraged Rao Saheb even more and he exclaimed to Chhagan, "Pir, Wali, Sadguru, and Murshid! All have left and only Baba remains, but He is beating us with brooms today. Has it affected us in any way? We are still as we were." Rao Saheb's comments meant that even though Baba was the sole spiritual authority, He would goad His disciples like this, which they had to endure.
Chhagan returned and informed Baba about what had happened. Baba immediately sent for Rao Saheb and reprimanded him, "You animal, why is there so much pride in you? What do you mean by saying such things? No one has left! All Sadgurus are where they were. It is you who are leaving them. It is no use throwing dust at the sun! It will hurt your own eyes. If you strike glass on a stone, it is the glass which will break into pieces- not the stone.
"It is not easy using a broom. If I don't use it, how else will your anger be removed? When I use My broom, you have seen how all your dirt – lust, greed and anger are swept away."
Rao Saheb clarified his feelings, "I have no objection to putting on anyone else's clothing, but from childhood I've been taught that it is wrong." Baba again scolded him, "You fool. It is for this very reason that I have spent so much time with you. Jungli! Idiot, you should accept what the Master says! You are not required to think about it.
"This is the reason why priests have such a firm hold over the minds of common people to eradicate this hold is most difficult. You have been with Me for so many years, and see how firmly your upbringing is still rooted in you. If you don't listen now, you will be born as a frog in your next birth! Now will you listen to Me?" This comment made Rao Saheb smile and he apologized for his behavior
The Poona centre lovers would come to Guruprasad and describe all the work they were doing for Baba; boasting, we held such and such a program there-we had to face many difficulties, we worked so hard, we sang such beautiful bhajans that people were wonderstruck, our lecture created a great impression.” Baba would listen them and praise them in their efforts.
Once, when boast went too far, sending for Baidul, Baba stated, “Tomorrow, visit the Telugu locality and speak to them about Me. Take Krishna Bundellu’s father with you and do the work well.”
Baidul did as ordered. When the Poona centre workers appeared the following afternoon, Baba asked, Baidul, “Tell Me in detail what you did yesterday.”
“Yesterday’s work went off very well, Baba,” replied Baidul. “The Andhraites were impressed and all are coming for darshan.”
“Then you have done a good job, haven’t you?”
“Yes, very good work was done. I was roaming about the area all the daylong and got quite exhausted. I did lot of work.”
“What? You wild barbarian, Jangali Irani! Have you the face to do such work? What work could you possibly do? Who knows you? Don’t you realize that I alone do My work?”
“Yes you will, Baba, only You do the work.”
“Then why do you take the credit for it, saying that you did it?” Baba asked, “You were quite tired and put upon to do it, weren’t you?”
“Yes. Baba, I became very tired from the hot sun, moving about the whole day.”
But what is so great in that? If there was a will to obey Me, you would not have spoken about tiredness. You should be ashamed to say such things in My presence. Turn into dust; obey then do My work! Why do you praise yourself? You are full of ego! What work of Mine can you ever do? Only he who sincerely believes that Baba alone does His work can help Me. Have you the faith to do any work?’
Thus Baba kept beating Baidul, and Poona workers, sitting as statue, listened. Baidul was made the target to teach them a lesson, and from that day on they never boasted about their achievements. To impart morale to others, Baba would always use the mandali as targets, as they could bear the wounds He inflicted.
In a darshan program, Suloo Meshram stood up and said, "Last evening, I felt more or less unaware of my surroundings, and for about two hours, kept myself closeted in the bathroom. I felt that some breeze from God was passing over me; I felt I was beyond birth and death. I completely forgot about my family and my dying child, too, the child I left behind in answering Baba's invitation to come to Meherabad. I don't know whether the child is alive or dead. I still hear some sort of music and smell sweet smells. Yesterday, I was seeing light before my eyes, and that is why I could not sleep."
Baba motioned for Suloo to be seated and commented, "Suloo is telling the truth. He has been in My contact since April 1938, when he was a lad of fourteen. Since then, his love for Me has increased. He has composed songs about Me that are published in a book."
Baba, however, then admonished him, "Whatever your experience may be, there is no need to tell others about it!
Listen very carefully. When you narrate these instances, the ego gets tickled, and you don't know it. 'I saw this sight, it was so wonderful, and I felt so happy ...' All these magnify the ego!
G.S. N. Murty & C D Deshmukh
Both persons were Ph.D. Previous day Murthy had given lecture on Baba Avatarhood in Poona and was expecting Baba to ask him the gist of speech. Suddenly in presence of all Baba asked him to whistling. On a negative reply, Baba said, “You don’t know even whistling. What kind of Ph.D. you are? Baba then Baba asked Deshmukh to whistle. He tried but could not produce correct sound. Baba Said, You too are Ph. d. from London, You produce sound like baby pissing “Soo, Soo”.
Then Baba asked Baidul (not conversant in English) to give a lecture on His Avatar hood. Baidul raising hands started repeating few English words with punctuation of Avatar Meher Baba ki Jai”. Baba said, “Fine, what a good speech” Baba asked Murty and Deshmukh, “Why don’t you clap.”
Then Baba called Meherji and asked him and said,” You now show, these two Ph.D.’s what a whistle is like? Meherji whistled so loud resounding the hall with vibrations. Baba said,” That’s kind of whistling I wanted to hear.”
Dr. Murty and Deshmukh were down to earth and realised the scene which was created by Baba to cut down their ego of intelligence.
Krishna Nair was assigned duty of watchman for Baba. Incident took place in 1942 when Baba was in Dehradun. He did not like girls. Once a girls asked him to accompany, he spat on her face. Girl complained to Baba. Baba asked the girl to beat Krishna with her sandal and reprimanding Krishna asked him to bow down to girl and seek her forgiveness
Baba asked Krishna Why he did so? Krishna said I do not want to touch a woman and have any contact. I will not marry. Baba said you will marry and have son also. Krishna said, “I will never marry”. Baba said, “Are you challenging Me? You will marry and have a son also.” Baba called Vishnu with a quill pen and ordered Krishna to write on paper with his blood drawn from his forefinger by Dr. Nilu. After examining the signed paper Baba asked Vishnu for safe custody.
Baba permitted Krishna one month’s leave to visit his mother on condition that he should obey his mother only member in his family. Baba used to send Rs. 30 /every month. His mother pestered him for marriage. Krishna sent a word to Baba. A one line telegram was sent by Baba “Obey your mother’s words” He got married and the next day, he received telegram form Baba to return back. His newly married wife asked him to obey Baba. On reaching Rishikesh, Baba asked him to keep it secret.
After one and half year, Baba granted Him leave for one month but called him back after 25 days. In November, 1947, Baba asked him to leave he has gotten angry with a boy named Chandrabhan.
In August 1949, he came back to Meherabad with intention to join Meher Baba in His New Life. By this time a letter was received that his wife has given birth to a son. Baba asked Krishna, “How is your wife and son? Everyone was surprised how a son was born to him without marriage? Baba asked Vishnu to bring the paper singed by Krishna pledging in 1942 that he will not marry. Baba said “This bloody rascal challenged Me that he would not marry! Now he is married and has a son also.” Nilu interjected saying he wanted basundi for celebration. Baba said, “Ask Krishna, who is to give Basundi”. Krishna said, “Baba, I have no money”. Baba arranged basundi for everyone to celebrate the occasion.
N.B. These episodes are extracted from “Lord Meher”, other books and biographies written by Baba Lovers. There would be many more such examples which are not my knowledge.