49-THERE IS NO NEED TO TELL YOUR EXPERIENCE TO OTHERS
It can be said that every Baba lover had some kind of experience on gross or subtle (in dream) plane which have drawn him to Meher Baba. May it be by the charming, most beautiful and amazing personality of Meher Baba; effect of His radiating halo in His presence, some miracle in form of fulfillment of his desires, some sort of vision or experience in dream or awake state or intellectual conviction of reading Baba’s Literature. There may be many more reasons beyond guess. The reality is that it is Baba (one is not unaware that Baba Himself is playing one’s role) has drawn us to Him. Baba words as interpreted, it is not that you have come to Me, but I who has brought you to Me.
According to Baba,
“No miracle is an exception of the existing law of universe. We call it a miracle because it cannot be explained by known laws of the gross world. Miracle means known laws are superimposed by unknown laws.”
One might have experienced miracles from Baba, but Baba said, “I do not perform miracles, but sometimes miracles are performed by Me unconsciously out of My overflowing love for you. In my words,” it is like water spilling out of a pitcher fully filled with water during carriage. In Baba’s words, it is your love for Me that makes you experience miracles.
Now, when it comes to narrating your experiences or miraculous episodes with Meher Baba, it is not needed unless it is asked by Baba Himself. There is reason. Behind any such narration, there lies a hidden element of ego in form of self expression. It may be fractional but reflects one’s ego to some extent and further gets inflated.
Above fact, is substantiated with real episode of Suloo Meshram.
In 1958 during a darshan program, Meher Baba asked His lovers present as who has not slept well last night and reason for that.
Suloo Meshram stood up and said, "Last evening, I felt more or less unaware of my surroundings, and for about two hours, kept myself closeted in the bathroom. I felt that some breeze from God was passing over me; I felt I was beyond birth and death. I completely forgot about my family and my dying child, too, the child I left behind in answering Baba's invitation to come to Meherabad. I don't know whether the child is alive or dead. I still hear some sort of music and smell sweet smells. Yesterday, I was seeing light before my eyes, and that is why I could not sleep."
Baba motioned for Suloo to be seated and commented, "Suloo is telling the truth. He has been in My contact since April 1938, when he was a lad of fourteen. Since then, his love for Me has increased. He has composed songs about Me that are published in a book."
Baba, however, then admonished him, "Whatever your experience may be, there is no need to tell others about it!”
“Listen very carefully. When you narrate these instances, the ego gets tickled, and you don't know it. 'I saw this sight, it was so wonderful, and I felt so happy ...' All these magnify the ego!”
“If there is love, and if you let it slip out of your lips, you waste it! If you express it in words, you ruin it! Suppose you really love Me, then you should keep that love locked within you. If you let it out, it tantamount to an insult! If I ask you of My own accord, you may explain, but do not talk of it on your own.”
It may be also understood that narration of one’s own experience may be encouraging for Baba lovers but it carries no weight or very little impact on outside listeners. An outsider may take your lecture purely as self appreciation or may not believe at all unless he gets some kind experience of his own.
We must think of remedy and how to get rid of temptation of self appreciation? One may narrate other’s experiences or other may narrate his experience. Though element of self expression is still there but its proportion is much less compared to relating one’s own story by himself.